A perfectly good disruptive moment

I just deleted a perky announcement touting the beginning of a webinar for which I’d registered. The topic was (to paraphrase) doing and being everything.

Before you start wondering, “What was she thinking?” this was a presentation aimed at helping multi-potentialed people, like me, fully inhabit their multi-potentialism rather than denying the way we process the world. It’s an area where deeper understanding can benefit me so taking a webinar seemed like a solid choice.

Still, when I looked at the reminder email through a fog of fatigue and worry, all I could think was, “I don’t want to be everything! I just want to be me. I just want to inhabit my own time.”

Welcome to a perfectly good disruptive moment.

Multi-potentialed people (also known as Renaissance Souls, Scanners or multi-passionates) thrive when we have many interests being fed at once. Several plates spinning makes me a happy woman. The challenging side of being multi-potentialed though is knowing when a comfortable several plates slides into “Whoa, too many! Too many!”

For more than a year I’ve been engaged in shifting my career path. I completed training in career development facilitation, opened a new practice as a career coach, am developing and facilitating workshops, blogging, collaborating on creating a retreat series, co-founding a women’s writing group, mom-taxiing for my daughter and dealing with reams of other parenting and household responsibilities – and all while working a part time job.

Plates have been spinning madly and it’s all felt rewarding, intriguing and manageable. Until I saw that email and realized I can’t remember the last time I was the only person with a claim on my time and attention. (Several plates wobbled dangerously.)

That’s when life, or my unconscious, disrupted my spinning rhythm by sparking my “I don’t want to do or be everything” mini rebellion.

The needle of my day-to-day life skipped out of its year-long groove and slid over to a new channel. The current plates have settled down and are humming along more slowly. All except the “more personal development workshops, please” plate. I tucked that one away for the moment. Oh, it will come out again sometime – after I retire another plate or two. But for now? Being myself, that’s being everything I choose to be.

The thing about a perfectly good disruptive moment is they’re easily missed, especially if we’re in “power through” mode or when our inner taskmaster has taken over. That’s why I try to make sure that one of the plates I’m always spinning is my mindfulness plate. Because even if I’m so intrigued by what I’m creating that I miss smaller signals, if I’m staying present and aware I’ll catch the disruption when it happens and adjust accordingly.

How about you? Had any good disruptive moments lately? Or, do you need one?

Tracie Nichols writes poetry and facilitates group writing experiences from under the wide reach of two old Sycamore trees in southeastern Pennsylvania. She is the co-founder of the Embodied Writers writing group and a Transformative Language Artist helping women write themselves home. You can find Tracie on her website.

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