Quite a few changes have happened in my life over the past 5 years. Some good, some ehh…but everybody wants the secret sauce for the good stuff. Unfortunately, it isn’t always what they want to hear. I spent many hours in therapy, lots of introspective time, both life and business coaching. Even with all that, it essentially came down to this; I sat with my monsters…I sat with them, until I could love and accept them, until their ugliness turned into a sort of lovely cuteness that I can live with. Still, sometimes they forget their place and start to whisper and then yell:

~ you’re not good enough
~ who do you think you are?
~ you don’t eat (healthy enough, all organic, vegetarian, _______)
~ you know you’ll gain all that weight back
~ you can’t do that
~ people will judge you
~ you’ve never run a marathon
~ you’re too scattered
~ damn, you even forgot the deadline for this post!

Here’s the thing that I never forget. They are both right and wrong. I am not where I want to be (yet) and I continually strive for more. But I AM good enough, and most days I do better than the day before. Those monsters? They are important to me, a part of me that I don’t want around me all the time, but I need them some of the time. To have them pop in at times so I remember where I have come from. I need them around me simply so I can remember where I have come from, so that I can grow. They force me to look at status quo and through their unwavering gaze, I know I need to change, to move to another plane of being. Other times, I just sit with my monsters, accept them and allow them to be. Here’s hoping you can all do that for your little monsters too.