Dealing with Anxiety

My temperament has always been one of chaos. New things and challenges always excite me. I can ground myself and deal with confrontation. And normally when anything goes wrong I will work hard to fix this.

Our son was born over 12 years ago. Growing up we always thought he has a certain quirkiness about him. Feeding him was always tough, he would only stick to one thing – chicken nuggets. In fact, we toured a whole island in New Zealand with him only eating that.

His books were always size and color coded. When people met him they always commented on what an old soul he was. That he had spent time on this earth in previous lives.

It was not until he started school that we understood his struggles. His fear of failing, his need for constant routine and more than that his overwhelming sense of anxiety.

Our daughter is very different. She too thrives on new situations and although she has a whole lot of different issues, she would always find a solution.

My first instinct was to ask myself “How could I fix this.” I am a parent. I should be able to fix my son so that he has no issues and his life is full of amazing things.

We went to a child psychologist and he was diagnosed with a moderate to extreme anxiety disorder. Now some of the extended family thought this was in his head, especially the older members. “He will get over it” they said and took no time to get to know him or his disorder.

Just recently he has started his high school journey – a whole set of new routines and expectations. And again we have found him struggling.

I guess for me; this breaks my heart. No one wants to see their child so upset they cannot communicate and have problems breathing. No one wants to see their child struggling.

We have learned ask for help – to get help from professionals, to read up on as many different solutions as we can.

You see this is an illness just like being sick. But it is a mental illness, something which many suffer from.

I pen my story today in the hope that I can give hope to many parents out there. You see I love my son and all his “isms.” I love the fact that this is him. I love that fact that he is different. He teaches me to see the world in a different way. More than that, he helps me to be a better person.

Namaste lovelies. Give your loved ones a special hug today.

Laurainne Marshall (AKA Lo) lives in Sydney, Australia with her 2 kids, Hayley and Jamie, and her soul mate of over 30 years, Graham. Their furbaby is a beautiful Groodle  named Jarrah.
Laurainne has many roles - Wife, Mother, Teacher and Musician. She believes that life is to be lived at full throttle and is deeply spiritual. Her motto is “Grab life and run.” She also believes one person can make a difference in this world and hopes that by sharing her life experiences, she might inspire a few people along the way.
When she is not teaching through the week, you can find Lo belting out 80s hits in her band Soundproofed. You can follow the band on Facebook.

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