For years I have wanted to color my hair some version of purple. Not full out purple, but maybe highlights? The problem has always been that I work in a professional environment that would frown upon that. And so, my purple hair has remained a deep (purple) and hidden desire.
The kicker is that I’ve been working from home for almost five months now with no end in sight. We have no electronic or in person meetings. I don’t even need to put on the professional top with leggings! Could there be a more perfect time to go after my deepest hair desire? Probably not, and yet there has been no purple hair. It’s one thing to procrastinate about the things we don’t want, that’s the normal procrastination, but…
The question I want to explore is this: Why do we push down and away the things we actually want to do? I’m still working on this, as well as challenging my thoughts about this. I’ve had discussions with other women about this same issue, so I know I’m not alone! I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that, especially in recent times, there are so few things that we are actually able to do. Depending on where we live, and the strength of our convictions, we aren’t doing any of the “normal” things we would do to take care of ourselves and enjoy life: go out to eat, get a mani/pedi, see our loved ones, go to the movies, travel, go to parties, the list goes on and on.
It leads to a status quo mentality, and unfortunately, we have quickly become used to every day being like Groundhog’s Day. It’s the same each and every day. Why push yourself out of your comfort zone? Why do anything today when tomorrow is just as good? Why workout? Why eat healthy? Why color my hair purple?
I’ll tell you why. Life, at its longest and best lived, is short. If we’re extremely fortunate, we can live to be 100. That would be beautiful, right? I hope that for all of us, and I want to live my life in the fullest way possible. In a world that is full of scary news, and where I wonder and worry about humanity in general, I still want to find ways to be “me.” I want to be silly and fun and amazed by the beauty of life. So tomorrow, I will take my morning walk, grateful that I am able to breathe in fresh air. I will eat well, because nourishing my body is the best way I know to protect myself against illness and disease, as well as being an example of who I want to be. I will live my life the best way I can. I will find little ways to be the truest version of myself. And maybe, just maybe, I’ll throw in some purple highlights.