The last few months have been difficult for me. You see my hubby, after over 30 years in the same place, has been made redundant.
He has always been my constant. I was blessed to be able to be part time for 8 years when the kids were young. There were times when we could not make ends meet, but he always got up every morning at the same time and went to work. He was the main bread winner for many, many years. Although he did not necessarily love it, he did what he had to do to support me and the kids.
We knew redundancy was on the cards; in fact for many years we have managed to dodge it.
Now that he’s worked his last day at the job, there is no clear path ahead. He does not know what he wants to do and if he wants to retrain. What I do know is he deserves a break, time to re-energize.
So, I have gone from someone who plans 10 years in advance to someone who is winging it. At the start, I was so very, very worried about everything. But I have to tell you, seeing the look on his face, how happy he is and how relaxed he is, is worth the change in mindset.
I am embracing the chaos, stepping into the future with no definitive plans and believing that the universe will provide. It has been hard to do. Maybe I am still trying, but hey, at least I am trying…right??????